Many of you heard the story but none of you were there when it happened. But I was there and I am friends with this guys mother who filled us in on the rest.
I on the other hand am very disapointed in peole and rumors being spreaded.
Even the News people cant get the story straight this is there side of the story with my notes added in.


A standoff that shut down much of the city of Eaton Rapids came to end Thursday afternoon about ten hours after it started *It started at 2am but ER was not blocked off till 6:30-7 am*, without any shots being fired Well what about the stupid ER officer that saw him walk out of the house on his cell phone while he was talking to the negotiator to come out and the ER cop thought it was a knife to his throat and yelled "Hes got a Knife!!" And fired 6 warning shots, hmm I would say shots were fired but Michael did not have a gun at any point nor did her ever have hostages except himself..

The suspect is being identified as 42 year old Michael Parish. Police say he is a former Eaton Rapids resident, but had moved to Indiana and is wanted there for severely beating his wife. WTF?? He Didn't beat his wife people!!!! Him and his wife were remodeling in the garage and house where she fell and he went out to catch her when she landed face first into the saw which fucked her up really badly. Michael told police that he was leaving to Michigan last night cause he needed to talk to his mother and see her. He Came to Michigan around 11 something last night and He didn't have a warrant for his arrest till this morning at 11:30 from the State of Indiana, cause his nephew told a lie and said that he watched him beat her and then not even long after turned around and said he lied and told them what really happened.

Also Michael did not Brake 1 Michigan Law at all during this whole time.

Parish's mother has an apartment in the Eaton Rapids house where he had hold-up. He didn't want to leave the house he had no reason to he wasn't doing anything wrong and it was The Old Hospital building where the apartments are.

Parish is in the Eaton County jail, pending extradition back to Indiana. Umm He is already on his way to Indiana thank you very Much...

Officers and deputies from the Eaton Rapids police department, Eaton County Sheriff's department and Eaton Rapids EMS spent much of the day negotiating with Parish. Main Street was closed between Elizabeth and Broad until the standoff ended. Eaton Rapids Police didn't do much at all except traffic duty it seemed. Officer moleskey was on duty at the time and more in charge but Because of the ER police Michael was shot at in a way and was accused of other things that didn't ever happen.

Oh and whoever came up with the rumor that he shot his wife or his mother and bashed in his wife's head with a rock was wrong, whoever said that he was trying to commit suicide was wrong.

I almost fell for a few things today till I realized its April Fools.. *lol*

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light.
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can’t STAND the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t STAND the pain

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I’m fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold
On to a time when
Nothing mattered
And I can’t explain
What happened and I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I finally realized over the last week that you cant depend on no one.
It doesn't matter how much you trust them or are close to them.
You still get screwed over.
You cant keep their word, they still break it.
You cant keep their promises, they still break them too..
Or is it just my theory that I just can not trust MEN no matter what?
They always fuck me over in more ways than one.
uggghh I just want to shoot one of them right now....

Other than that...
Things are going great so far..
I think I have finally made a step in life being myself and not holding on to much..
But thats another entry some other time..
For now Im just gonna enjoy the night..

So ya.. *Lol*

I went to wash my face today cause i got done changing my piercings and brushed my teeth.. and well as I was drying my face off I kinda was stupid and pulled my ring out of my lip.. So now I cant get the ring back in and I have to wait a day or two with a stud in it so that I can try again with the ring..

On other note I need to dye my hair again. I hate the color right now, its like a light pink since the Fusia washed out... Maybe I should try another hair dye brand... It was suppose to last longer and it was a pretty purple and bright pink for Halloween and now a dull pink and blond.. *lol*

So today I was given a test from a very close friend of mine, which I sometimes don't understand why we live in different states.. But anyways, I was asked to at least tell one person *No* today, since she knows im struggling threw stuff by always giving in to everyone and saying yes, Well I didn't know that a major question was gonna be asked to me today which I already knew i was gonna say no to because of what I believe and feel and think, Well that person didn't want no for an answer and now it leaves me thinking am a really that nice to everyone and is it that hard for people to hear me say no and so they think im just joking when I say it?
I don't know so I am stuck at the thought did I past the test or not?

Well anyways I need to try to fix my myspace so Ill talk to ya all later..
Maybe some of ya can come check out my place sometime.. *lol*

According to Boston Legal

I have 'Attraction to same sex Disorder'

Wow, I think thats all I can say..
There putting disorders on everything..

My head is running on and On and so hear goes my best effort to write something that makes little sense but it helps me think clearer if I just write what I think and sorts stuff out as I go..

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"On Earth, no one knows what love is. All we see and know is the effect of love." ~White Knight~

No one knows what love really is until they lost it.
I know what it is, and feels like and I don't want it.

To have the most amazing thing in life be given to you and every moment a miracle to have, and in a split second to have it torn away from you and no chance of it ever coming back is the worst thing to feel.

But, Some how that second chance comes along and takes you by the hand and looks you in the eyes and to knows everything thats being said without a word and with a calm voice saying everything is going to be all right is the best feeling ever and to be able to learn ever step,mood, and reaction of that person and to know what will always come next and or what the next words would be without having to have it spoken is everything to know every line in there face and hands to know every curve of their body, and to know the sound of there breathing when they fall asleep and when they are happy or sad, and to know that no mater what they will always be there for you by your side. To hold you when you need to cry or just be held to stand there and help you threw the tough time in your life and to say I love you when it is most needed.
Yes that is love for me to be able to take that breath when you wake up and know the day will be great and its worth getting up for and living one more day, to know that at least you can have one more day of happiness and sunny sky's and fresh air and a normal heart beat.
But for some odd reason you start to realize that your not being held up anymore. that hand that was holding yours that mad everything better is letting go and pushed you away. That only thought in the morning for one more day is gone an that you wish that you will never wake up again cause those nightmares that are coming back are less painful then what the next day will bring. That someone has garbed you from the chest and is taking there free hand and reaching in to grab the only thing that you thought may have been finally mended and is being torn out slowly and then something happens and they realize that they need you there for them and all you can think of is what do I get out of it? Do I have to put myself into more pain and misery trying to get over what all happened and yet you fell so helpless for nothing else in your life matters anymore other than doing every last thing know to do, to make there life more than yours, and know that it could have been you that was right next to them when they are smiling and your on the other side of that glass that you can see out but they cant see you. and you feel at least a bit happy that you were there but on other terms its slamming your heart back and forth and tearing hear and there and you want it to go away but it never will cause what you had left to give you gave it and no matter what pain you went threw or what lengths you went it was never enough for anything.
And that love is taken from you.

And yes I did love, and still do but its not the same anymore.
But im lost now. my heart has already been torn out I just need it put back in but with at least your love as a friend and somethings to take me by the hand and look at me and say everything will be ok just give it time and to stand by me and be there and not leave me without a reason why and I don't know anymore what I want to say or where I want to go with this.
All I know is I cant lose you as well. I know what it feels to love and lose and that has killed me every second of every day knowing that my last words were pretty much I hate you and I don't want that to be mine to you.

Just a quick question....

*WHO THE FUCK ELECTED THE BITCH IN OFFICE???*


Government shutdown details include, but are not limited to:

AGRICULTURE: All Department of Agriculture activities will stop during a government shutdown, except livestock vehicle inspections at the Mackinac Bridge, which are required to maintain the Upper Peninsula's Tuberculosis-free designation for cattle. During the shutdown, food safety inspections, recall effectiveness checks, gas pump inspections, animal disease monitoring, and migrant labor camp inspections will stop; agriculture export and cattle movement permits will not be issued; and horse racing will shutdown. Exports from Michigan to foreign countries would essentially cease should state government shut down. Commodities affected include dry beans, logs and lumber, nursery stock, grain, fruits, and vegetables.

THE COURTS: The Michigan Supreme Court and the Court of Appeals will continue to operate with a limited staff to handle emergency matters.

CIVIL RIGHTS: All Department of Civil Rights activities will stop during a government shutdown. Residents wishing to file a discrimination complaint will be able to leave a message at 1-800-482-3604 with the details of their complaint. For purposes of meeting the 180-day legal requirement, the message will constitute an official notice of the intention to file a complaint. Residents calling Civil Right's Crisis Response Hotline to report a hate crime or bias incident may also leave a message, although they are encouraged to contact local law enforcement for immediate assistance.

COMMUNITY HEALTH: A number of operations within the Department of Community Health will be maintained to ensure that the health of our citizens is protected. State mental health facilities will remain open with reduced staffing, though voluntary, non-court admissions will be suspended. Critical laboratory services will operate to ensure newborn screenings are completed in a timely manner, and threats of immediate harm can be addressed. Limited Medicaid support will be available to approve emergency medical prior-authorizations and review exception requests for medications and medical procedures. The DCH also will maintain the toll-free number to register nursing home complaints of a serious nature.

CORRECTIONS: Department of Corrections functions will continue as needed to protect the safety of Michigan citizens. The state's prisons, prison camps, and parole/probation monitoring will continue to operate, though at a reduced staffing level. Administrative operations outside of the prisons will shut down.

EDUCATION: All Department of Education operations will shut down, except for the Michigan School for the Deaf. If Department of Education employees have not returned to work by mid-October, the state school aid payment due on October 22 will not be made.

ENVIRONMENTAL QUALITY: The Department of Environmental Quality will maintain only limited staff during the shutdown period to meet U.S. Department of Homeland Security air- monitoring requirements and process critical drinking water samples to address the most immediate public health concerns. All other department functions will shut down. This means no permits (air quality, surface water discharge, wetlands, dredging, etc.) will be processed and no environmental complaints will be received or investigated. The Pollution Emergency Alerting System will be operational, but the department will have extremely limited ability to respond to emergencies reported through that system.

HISTORY, ARTS & LIBRARIES: All Department of History, Arts and Libraries operations will shut down except security and emergency monitoring services at the Mackinac Island Airport and public areas. The Library of Michigan, the Michigan Historical Museum, and historic sites around Michigan will be closed. Mackinac Island paid admission sites will close and garbage and manure pick-up and road maintenance will cease.

HUMAN SERVICES: Critical Department of Human Services' operations will be maintained to protect the safety of children, families, and vulnerable adults. Most local offices will remain open with a small percentage of field staff on the job to respond to child protective services and adult protective services emergencies; make emergency foster care placements; and process emergency payments for evictions, lack of utilities, lack of food, etc. Cash assistance, food assistance, child day care, adoption subsidies, and foster care payments will continue, but no new applications will be processed (except for emergencies as described above). Child support payments received from non-custodial parents will be sent to families; and the state's juvenile justice facilities will operate and will be staffed to protect the safety of residents.

INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY: A limited number of Department of Information Technology personnel will be needed to maintain state operating systems and to provide technical support for those services that will continue.

LABOR & ECONOMIC GROWTH: The majority of Department of Labor & Economic Growth operations will be shut down. Most of the Unemployment Insurance Agency will be closed, however, unemployment checks will continue to be processed and new applications can be made over the phone or via the Internet. In addition, the Michigan Career & Technical Institute in Plainwell and the Michigan Commission for the Blind Training Center in Kalamazoo will continue to provide education and training for disabled individuals.

LOTTER & GAMING: Lottery sales will end at the close of business on September 30, 2007. Players will not be able to purchase or redeem winning tickets. Minimal staff will maintain drawings due to the advance sale of tickets. State gaming inspectors will be idled as well, forcing the state-licensed casinos in Detroit to close.

MANAGEMENT & BUDGET: A limited number of Department of Management and Budget personnel will maintain state-owned buildings.

MICHIGAN STATE HOUSING DEVELOPMENT AUTHORITY: The Michigan State Housing Development Authority will be closed during shutdown and all operations will stop.

MILITARY & VETERANS AFFAIRS: The MVA State Finance and State Human Resource offices will be closed. The state's two veterans' homes in Grand Rapids and Marquette will continue operating with reduced staffing but will maintain the minimum staffing as required by law. The Youth Challenge Program will also remain operational but with minimum staff. Feeding and education will be provided by the Battle Creek Public Schools, an established partner of the Challenge Program. The state's 44 National Guard armories, six National Guard training sites, and National Guard administrative offices are federally funded and will remain open.

NATURAL RESOURCES: All DNR operations will be shut down, except a minimal crew to maintain the state's six fish hatcheries and a small contingent of forest firefighters needed to continue containment operations at the Sleeper Lakes fire in the Upper Peninsula and to respond to other fire emergencies. Shutdown will require that all state parks, recreation areas, DNR visitor centers and state forest campgrounds be closed, including day use areas. Citizens with camping reservations at a state park or recreation area during the duration of the shutdown will be eligible for a refund. The sale of hunting and fishing licenses may be delayed if technical problems with the state server prevent processing, and gated boat access sites will not be accessible. In addition, timber will not be marked for sale or sold. The archery deer season set to open on October 1 will proceed, however, deer check stations will not be operating.

SECRETARY OF STATE: Secretary of State Terri Lynn Land has indicated that branch offices will be closed during the shutdown. License plate renewal will be available via the Web, self-service stations, and touch-tone phone in the event of a shutdown.

STATE POLICE: The Michigan State Police will continue to protect Michigan citizens during shutdown. Though all MSP posts will be closed to the public, a limited number of troopers will be maintained to provide critical law enforcement services across the state. Administrative and specialized operations will be curtailed, resulting in the cessation of crime lab services, commercial vehicle enforcement, drug and criminal investigations, detective services, disaster assistance, and casino gaming oversight.

TRANSPORTATION: All road construction, routine maintenance, and administrative operations will stop. The state's rest areas will be closed. In addition, six of the state's lift bridges, in compliance with U.S. Coast Guard regulations, will be locked in the up position, allowing only water traffic to pass. Those bridges are located in Manistee, Bay City, St Joseph, Port Huron and Detroit. The Mackinac Bridge, the International Bridge, and Blue Water Bridge will remain operational.

TREASURY: Department of Treasury operations will cease during a shutdown, including the Michigan Lottery, Casino Gaming Control Board, Michigan Education Trust, and the Michigan Education Savings Plan programs. A prolonged shutdown would delay revenue sharing payments to local units of government, school aid and higher education payments, and financial aid payments. A limited number of staff would be maintained to process incoming receipts and outgoing critical payments (including cash assistance, unemployment benefits, and debt service on bonds).

Can I be a real person too?

Can I have feelings?
Can I love people as everyone else can?
Can I hurt as everyone else?

Or is it that I'm just Shonna and I'll get over it later?

Well my asthmas back..

I hate it its like every night I feel myself fall and like then I jerk real hard I'm having my sleep apniea again and then when I wake up i need my inhaler and then during the day I feel times that all i want to do is blow my lungs up cause they don't want to themselves.. I hate it..

Its been going on for a bit but today it was like *BAM* like 10x more...
hopefully i can sleep a little bit..

Tomorrows my last day at Meijers Gas in Mason im so happy but ill miss a few people a lot though.. mainly just renee..

I kinda think it is my birthday every day or well the failure part pretty much and just the thought that I want to relax some but dont...



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August 15 is . . . . National Relaxation Day and National Failures Day

My Mothers house was hit real bad in the woods and all from the tornado.
The storm really did damage hopefully i can get pics up later from it
My brother jon and I went over toward Charlotte off chocran and helped with the victims we ended up closing the road cause of the damage and down power lines and one lady went to the hospital. The fields were flat like you can walk on them like a dirt road it was so flat the Barnes were on oposit sides of the street debree was everywhere it was so damn bad WE helped out as long as we could still it was horrible I just felt good for once about myself for helping.

So ya totally I just sprained my foot/ Ankle that I broke last year...

I did it taking the trash out at work as well..

So I cant life over 10 pounds the next two weeks and I am suppose to be on crutches 4-5 days depending on the swelling and all..

So ya Go me..

Well I now have a 6 Month old puppy!

Hes a Golden Retriever, Lab Mix. *He may have a pinch of pit in him to*
Hes a Rescue and was given to me from my Cousin.
I'm not sure if I can keep him or not but ill see..
I want a Husky real bad and as a puppy real small.

now I have to come up with a name for him by like tomorrow or the next.

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!







Please do not ever forget that! I really do mean it. I always have and always will!!!

Well I had a Car and then I lost it.. *lol* I was given a 94' Grand Am from my father it was a 2 door nice built in speakers and sound system to the CD player but the car was like shitty looking and well we found out that it was shitty and worth nothing so I sold it already so Im looking for a car or at least a ride to work now that I have a job..

I finally got a Job working at MEIJERS Gas Station!!!!
*lol*
I Hate it already!!!
BUt still its a job and I work from 2:30 - 11:00pm
with only a 15 minute break and a 1/2 hour lunch thats all..
!. You cant drink anything on the job its against the rules since there was complaints and you cant chew gum which I do anyways. The rules are stupid and asjkghasglh
I realized there is more kinds of cigerettes than I ever knew or heared of.. *lol*
Im like what you want? and there like its this side top shelf next section down and im like ok.. lol

BUt anyways!!!
I NEED SLEEP!!!!

I work again tomorrow and the next till Wed my last day for the week!
I work nights and weekends now it sucks..