Many of you heard the story but none of you were there when it happened. But I was there and I am friends with this guys mother who filled us in on the rest.
I on the other hand am very disapointed in peole and rumors being spreaded.
Even the News people cant get the story straight this is there side of the story with my notes added in.


A standoff that shut down much of the city of Eaton Rapids came to end Thursday afternoon about ten hours after it started *It started at 2am but ER was not blocked off till 6:30-7 am*, without any shots being fired Well what about the stupid ER officer that saw him walk out of the house on his cell phone while he was talking to the negotiator to come out and the ER cop thought it was a knife to his throat and yelled "Hes got a Knife!!" And fired 6 warning shots, hmm I would say shots were fired but Michael did not have a gun at any point nor did her ever have hostages except himself..

The suspect is being identified as 42 year old Michael Parish. Police say he is a former Eaton Rapids resident, but had moved to Indiana and is wanted there for severely beating his wife. WTF?? He Didn't beat his wife people!!!! Him and his wife were remodeling in the garage and house where she fell and he went out to catch her when she landed face first into the saw which fucked her up really badly. Michael told police that he was leaving to Michigan last night cause he needed to talk to his mother and see her. He Came to Michigan around 11 something last night and He didn't have a warrant for his arrest till this morning at 11:30 from the State of Indiana, cause his nephew told a lie and said that he watched him beat her and then not even long after turned around and said he lied and told them what really happened.

Also Michael did not Brake 1 Michigan Law at all during this whole time.

Parish's mother has an apartment in the Eaton Rapids house where he had hold-up. He didn't want to leave the house he had no reason to he wasn't doing anything wrong and it was The Old Hospital building where the apartments are.

Parish is in the Eaton County jail, pending extradition back to Indiana. Umm He is already on his way to Indiana thank you very Much...

Officers and deputies from the Eaton Rapids police department, Eaton County Sheriff's department and Eaton Rapids EMS spent much of the day negotiating with Parish. Main Street was closed between Elizabeth and Broad until the standoff ended. Eaton Rapids Police didn't do much at all except traffic duty it seemed. Officer moleskey was on duty at the time and more in charge but Because of the ER police Michael was shot at in a way and was accused of other things that didn't ever happen.

Oh and whoever came up with the rumor that he shot his wife or his mother and bashed in his wife's head with a rock was wrong, whoever said that he was trying to commit suicide was wrong.

I almost fell for a few things today till I realized its April Fools.. *lol*

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light.
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can’t STAND the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t STAND the pain

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I’m fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold
On to a time when
Nothing mattered
And I can’t explain
What happened and I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I finally realized over the last week that you cant depend on no one.
It doesn't matter how much you trust them or are close to them.
You still get screwed over.
You cant keep their word, they still break it.
You cant keep their promises, they still break them too..
Or is it just my theory that I just can not trust MEN no matter what?
They always fuck me over in more ways than one.
uggghh I just want to shoot one of them right now....

Other than that...
Things are going great so far..
I think I have finally made a step in life being myself and not holding on to much..
But thats another entry some other time..
For now Im just gonna enjoy the night..

So ya.. *Lol*

I went to wash my face today cause i got done changing my piercings and brushed my teeth.. and well as I was drying my face off I kinda was stupid and pulled my ring out of my lip.. So now I cant get the ring back in and I have to wait a day or two with a stud in it so that I can try again with the ring..

On other note I need to dye my hair again. I hate the color right now, its like a light pink since the Fusia washed out... Maybe I should try another hair dye brand... It was suppose to last longer and it was a pretty purple and bright pink for Halloween and now a dull pink and blond.. *lol*

So today I was given a test from a very close friend of mine, which I sometimes don't understand why we live in different states.. But anyways, I was asked to at least tell one person *No* today, since she knows im struggling threw stuff by always giving in to everyone and saying yes, Well I didn't know that a major question was gonna be asked to me today which I already knew i was gonna say no to because of what I believe and feel and think, Well that person didn't want no for an answer and now it leaves me thinking am a really that nice to everyone and is it that hard for people to hear me say no and so they think im just joking when I say it?
I don't know so I am stuck at the thought did I past the test or not?

Well anyways I need to try to fix my myspace so Ill talk to ya all later..
Maybe some of ya can come check out my place sometime.. *lol*

According to Boston Legal

I have 'Attraction to same sex Disorder'

Wow, I think thats all I can say..
There putting disorders on everything..

My head is running on and On and so hear goes my best effort to write something that makes little sense but it helps me think clearer if I just write what I think and sorts stuff out as I go..

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"On Earth, no one knows what love is. All we see and know is the effect of love." ~White Knight~

No one knows what love really is until they lost it.
I know what it is, and feels like and I don't want it.

To have the most amazing thing in life be given to you and every moment a miracle to have, and in a split second to have it torn away from you and no chance of it ever coming back is the worst thing to feel.

But, Some how that second chance comes along and takes you by the hand and looks you in the eyes and to knows everything thats being said without a word and with a calm voice saying everything is going to be all right is the best feeling ever and to be able to learn ever step,mood, and reaction of that person and to know what will always come next and or what the next words would be without having to have it spoken is everything to know every line in there face and hands to know every curve of their body, and to know the sound of there breathing when they fall asleep and when they are happy or sad, and to know that no mater what they will always be there for you by your side. To hold you when you need to cry or just be held to stand there and help you threw the tough time in your life and to say I love you when it is most needed.
Yes that is love for me to be able to take that breath when you wake up and know the day will be great and its worth getting up for and living one more day, to know that at least you can have one more day of happiness and sunny sky's and fresh air and a normal heart beat.
But for some odd reason you start to realize that your not being held up anymore. that hand that was holding yours that mad everything better is letting go and pushed you away. That only thought in the morning for one more day is gone an that you wish that you will never wake up again cause those nightmares that are coming back are less painful then what the next day will bring. That someone has garbed you from the chest and is taking there free hand and reaching in to grab the only thing that you thought may have been finally mended and is being torn out slowly and then something happens and they realize that they need you there for them and all you can think of is what do I get out of it? Do I have to put myself into more pain and misery trying to get over what all happened and yet you fell so helpless for nothing else in your life matters anymore other than doing every last thing know to do, to make there life more than yours, and know that it could have been you that was right next to them when they are smiling and your on the other side of that glass that you can see out but they cant see you. and you feel at least a bit happy that you were there but on other terms its slamming your heart back and forth and tearing hear and there and you want it to go away but it never will cause what you had left to give you gave it and no matter what pain you went threw or what lengths you went it was never enough for anything.
And that love is taken from you.

And yes I did love, and still do but its not the same anymore.
But im lost now. my heart has already been torn out I just need it put back in but with at least your love as a friend and somethings to take me by the hand and look at me and say everything will be ok just give it time and to stand by me and be there and not leave me without a reason why and I don't know anymore what I want to say or where I want to go with this.
All I know is I cant lose you as well. I know what it feels to love and lose and that has killed me every second of every day knowing that my last words were pretty much I hate you and I don't want that to be mine to you.